Of Plucked Flowers and Bloody Marys

Beloved Howard,
"Sunday morning, while waking up, I can't even focus on a coffee cup, an anorexic outburst disrupts the din...Where do i start, where do I begin??"
Sooooo, how have you been Howard?? Anymore claimed dead?? No? There isn't much of a market is there?
Of course you can see right through my transperant attempts, can you not love?..
Well in an intentional effort to not insult your intelligence...I would like to inform you..that I am no more a Mary, who has a place in heaven...
But then again , Heaven and Hell are merely folklores to entertain the Catholics and to scare the Jesuits...
And hence, to rephrase that in a manner perhaps more befitting an immortal, I am no longer a virgin...at least not in the way you remember me...

"Yes....and how does that make you feel??"
Shrinks have a way of making everything look extremely trivial and irrelevant in the "larger picture"....Well....who the EFFFFF gives an EFFFFFF about the EFFFING larger picture??...
Isnt it these trivial details that sort of redefine your means and your ends in the larger EFFFFFING picture...??
Well just so you know, it wasn't much of a deflowering ceremony...it was quick and rushed....I gave into my mortal state for once...and screamed for the blood in my veins and the air in my lungs....
As I was ,very carefully if I may add, grabbed by my thighs and softly violated....I realized, i was just losing out another great dream....and gaining another one..one with much more tangibility...and much more virlity....(dearest reckoning, if ur peeping...I called but you were unavailable)..
Without much else to concetrate on...I left with a sense of reconciled exhaustion..and the smell of Dainty daisies...
Now I know the question on your mind....Who was it....who took the right that was obviously yours immortaly...and screwed (quite literally) you out of your dues....
Well it was someone I promised you I wouldnt mention....and as per our previous correspondence, Is known as The Lord of Anorexia, n there will be no further discussions on him.
Suffice it to say...that Im waiting for a more oppurtune time now...to complete what was started....and left for the dead.....thnanks to my silly little mortality...something I've been trying to conquer sice the day I was born...which was not very long ago...

Yours a little Sore
Choleric