And then God asked for forgiveness..

Dear Howard,

the things we hold dearest to our heart, today was shattered for me....it was crushed, and crumpled, and withered away in my sight..and i stood there as helpless as the limbless Jaggannath....the decider of many destinies....

yes, my love, today, my invinciblity was taken from me....the impregnability of my unchartered ego was taken from me...as the remnants of what was rain yesterday on todays drying ground....and the many colors you would ignore if u are not to look at it through a dirty window..

the condescending vanquisher, even graciously smiled...to look for the smug satisfaction in my face, where i would reveal everything i chose not to in the first place...ah...how satsified must his mosnter be..while mine lies conquered and victimised..

but who may i turn for comfort??...Le Princess??? who hath none but her Hercules on mind...???

or Le Freud??...who hath a lot more on her mind?? Or perhaps to the creator....the master....the man who hath escaped such fate as mine..he who has shown me the way several times before??....

but i wish i had u here Howard...rite beside me..as i regaled u with the tale of my vanquisher.... how we battled for years...perhaps as many years as ive had consciouness...only to be finally swallowed by the endlessness of loss....the eternity of grief.....the masturbation of the cosmos...where for a second of pleasure they have jerked me around for an entire lifetime...and when they came.....they did not exhibit courtesy in the slightest...did not ask for my number...they just wore their jackets and walked...
now someitmes its okay to lose...a BATTLE...but then again..who doesnt like going out with grace Howard?
Its not much to ask for...if u want my head...take it..
but theres just so mnay time u can fuck with my country..YOU mother-fucking-terrorists!!!

Yours Truly...
Choleric