La Sacrificial Lamb....

Beloved Howard,
It is after long that I am writing to you...but I hope you know that you have plagued my thoughts perpetually since the day I laid eyes upon you. Yet it hardly seems your fault.
Everytime I am in self doubt or am consumed by virutes of any moral descent, I think of you, and the hatred I hold for the love I hold for you in my heart, and it all seems like absolution from my ambiguity.
This is not a runofthemill letter I write to you every now n then...with perhaps as much focus as that of a goldfish...Nooo....nonono.....
This is an actual letter where I am asking for your help...asking to be absolved of ambiguity, only this time the decision affects me and my profession...and not you or my hatred for my love of you.
Before I begin, understand this Howard, there are things I know about myself, and then there are things I understand about commonplace humans, such as yourself.....
Things I understand about myself, will be hard for you to keep up with....but try...
I'll write real slow...so you can understand it..

I-am-an-extremely-complex-person. There-are-things-I-couldn't-even-try-to-explain. I-am-trying-though. You-understand-that-I-am-a-fairly-talented-fairly-average-looking-farily-impressive-guy. And-hence-I-have-led-me-to-believe-that-I-might-actually-make-a-success-tomorrow. Now-here's-the-twist. Since-as-far-as-I-can-remember-,-I-have-depended-or-let's-just-say-relied-on-other-people-to-manage-me-while-I-drive-off-into-my-fantasyland-to-conjure-work-that-seems-fairly-fresh-and-farily-good.
Yet-I-feel-that-sometimes-I-may-be taken-for-a-ride-and-sometimes-my-means-become-greater-and-far-more-important-and-influential-than-the-ends-I-foresee. Cool???

So there you have it....my kryptonite....my water....my longlostcause...
There are many more questions I have for you..some easier...some a little more complicated......only....you wouldn't know what to say...

Goodnight Love
Yours Unflichingly

Choleric