Animal Fever..

Dearest Howard,

Today was indeed an extraordinary day in terms of my exposure to ultraviolet culture. Today, I saw Africa. No, not the way we're usually accustomed to. I saw it up close..in my own hands...and it stared back almost challenging me to pass a judgement. But therein, in the stare i found myself face-to-face with my greatest mortal enemy...confrontation. Yes...as with Africa and as with the Wicked Stepsisters, I was unable to generate a truly deserved confrontation. There was no greater desire in me than to...perhaps...SCREAM my balls out...but as with every other fag in this blessed city......you will not see confrontation when met with an even or an outshining match. But aren't these confrontations as important as our first flight....our first cliff dive....or losing our virgiity......for they are the ones that make us...well...capable of confrontation??????

Well..leaving confrontation issues aside...

There is a fact I havent been able to confront till date...a fact..more like a skeleton...which through the course of time...has become coated with the flesh of need, of values, of compromise and of course laughter....

It has become victim, as with other skeletons that weren't completely confronted and put to R.I.P..., a little human being with an identity of its own..but as hollow as the layers of flesh it is built upon. It is with greatest regret that I have ot inform you Howard, that I have become victim to the same growth of flesh. Nevermind..today is the day...the D DAY..

The princess has always been an omnipresence...the excuse or the cause I ahve never been able to provide to myself and the other unworthy deliberations, I have been unable justify.
However, today the Princess moves away, to her final resting ground..and while the world glorifies it and "celebrates" it...I mourn as an old-hag of a party pooper, the loss of an accomplice....

I chose her to be the power holder while I sometimes resigned to my harem of misery..and self evaluation...But she was unworthy...she was unjust...and she wasfoolish to believe....that the world would bend over and let her screw em in the arse...

And THAT is what iwas willing to share...with her....the power...the lust.....the scent...She gave it all up for what....a little validation? Forgive me Howard, but i fear that today is another day..and I have had a desperate realization..and you know how well i respond to these...Im somehow..okay with the fact that i never recieved any validation from you...for it would've mad einto another one of them mortals...foregoing and amateur at everything they do....

Thanks to never being validated....I've been acclimatised to a world full of me...

"the Name on everybody's lips is gonna be...

ROXIE.."

So while, as mentioned before, today IS another day.....and I will perhaps retract from my statement tomorrow...I am not still completely mesmerised by you..

I will miss you perhaps till the end of eternity...which is SOOOOOOOOO another day's discussion again.....I am starting to get over you..

Yours SINCERELY..

Choleric