Beaded Jingle..

Dearest Howard,
It is that time of the year again....the time when I get off my marijuana trips long enuff to give in life altering submissions....
some say its futile...."You will definitely win this Choleric.."....some say its completely worthy.."(hahahahh...hes soo screwed)"...yeah well so THEY can get their goodnights sleep..
eitherways...none of the above mentioned reasons ever stopped me...they are as they always have been....ineffective...at least in their purpose...i ALWAYS make sure honey that i lock the door and that nobody gets in...
so maybe this time is different...this time i might actually LOSE....like seriously....i might ACTUALLY be declared the next-thing-to-dread...rather than my usual the-next-big-thing crap...
well eitherways, i might actually be grounded then Howard....coz u have NOO idea..how this has gone to my head..
there may have been times when i saw myself in the mirror and did not reconize myself and walked into my own reflection coz it looked just soooooooooooooooooooooooo minimalistic.....
i can almost hear the applause..the roar of the crowd as I stand at the front of the catwalk...smiling at someone else's victory yet again.....smiling like a trained professional at a beauty pageant....secretly hoping the winner trips and falls on his face..or im pretty sure in this case...HER face...
so does this make me a bad person??....does it make me human?.....does my existence here get validated?....where are all these questions coming from??.....
how many faliures must I see Howard...before they start to go to my head...
and as though Her sin is not great enough for no redemption....guess who walked into my measly existence and demanded her share at power??..the Princess...yes...she is back from her little trip to her Kingdom...of which AAAYYEEE was King once...and she has decided that One is Not Enough!!!.....well ill be damned if i say so....but ill say it nonetheless....Hallelujah..Amen or watever form of confirmation u conform to...this aint ur turf anymore...and One Sin is quite enough for Me.....
Well not really in the mindset for more abstract encounters....

Urs Truly
Choleric